Two days ago, I relapsed. I started cutting again. But this time much, much deeper.
I had 1799 calories today which made me feel even worse, so I picked up my old best friend. That beautiful sharpened blade. So shiny, still had a drop of blood on it from two days ago. I cut into my leg, but not completely realizing how deep I was at first. But when I felt how good it was once The blade was deeper, the pain numbed my body for longer. Releasing me from the outside world and my mind for just a while.
Sadly my wrist is still bleeding, but my leg has stopped now. It still has that lovely stinking feeling.
To be 100% honest, I don’t want to recover. If I did I’d be miserable.
kim wbu? 