Save me. Please?

I don’t want to go on. I’m fed up of always feeling left out. In school, at home, everywhere.

Standing in the group we have at school, they all talk and laugh. They don’t include me in the conversation, I just stand there. Lucky if I even get a space in the circled group, mostly being pushed out to the back to stand by myself. 

I’m fed up of standing myself, hopelessly making up reasons to why they don’t include me: ‘They are having a personal conversation’ ‘They just forgot I was there because I’m quiet’ ‘Maybe if I say something…’ 

But in conclusion. They don’t care, they might claim they do, they might pretend to be there. They might make awkward conversation to try pity me. But I’m fed up. No one cares. No one. Only Calum, and even then he can’t be there all the time.